In this blog and in real life, I tend to try to stay away from talking about personal stuff. It's just never been something that's easy for me at all; I think that I either have some kind of weird, deep-seeded trust issues, or I'm genuinely allergic to serious conversations. (Because, look, here I go making jokes while I'm supposed to be serious. I'm sorry.) I mean, I'm not a psychiatrist or anything, but I feel like those are definite possibilities. (In other news, I like oxymorons and apparently I'm full-blown addicted to parenthesis.) I've got a couple friends who know quite a bit and my mom knows me inside and out, but other than that, I keep a lot to myself. I don't mind it, usually; in fact, I prefer it. I process things internally - usually if I put enough miles on my shoes or ink in my notebook, I can either find a solution for a tough situation or come to peace with it, whichever the case may be. I know what works for me.
And then, this. I've been following Whitney's blog ever since I decided that I was into that sort of thing, and I've always appreciated how open she is about just about everything. I mean, I'm sure there's stuff that she keeps to herself and that you don't know her whole entire life from clicking on that time-sucking "previous posts" button over and over again for eternity (not like I would know), but she's a whole heck of a lot more open than I am. She talks about her relationships and stuff she struggles with, and she does it well. Her most recent post, (here, in case you missed it the first time) is her heart poured out about her new boyfriend and huge life changes, and I have to admit that it made me a tiny bit jealous. Maybe I want to tell you all about the stuff that's going on with me, too!
So, here goes. Whitney, thanks a lot for this and you should probably go into sales or hypnosis or something because look at you making me do something that I'm not sure I want to without even trying. Without further ado or, really, my informed consent, what's been on my mind lately.
// How proud I am of my little sister. I feel like such an old person saying this, but she has grown up so, so much lately. It makes me cry a little, but in a good way. Like, tears of "wow, my little sister is growing up and I love the person she is." She's so mature about staying out of those stupid, dramatic middle school situations that twelve year old girls sometimes find themselves in. She's found this crazy self-discipline that she probably didn't even know she had in her - she's learning to limit her own TV time and taking care of herself, and it's really cool. S'proud.
// Maroon 5 concert. I'm headed there in juuuust under two months, and I am beyond excited! I can't wait to wear a cool concert outfit and belt every single song. That is all.
// Huge life decisions. As in, I just got offered a job at the camp that I've loved since I first stayed there in middle school. I have the chance to work there all summer, getting to know kids and working with other people my age who are really excited about serving God. Pros? Obviously. The environment would be incredible, I'll make a little bit of money, and I'll learn how to not be at home before I'm not at home all the time. Cons? Being gone almost the entire summer before I leave for college. It's a tough one, folks. I think I know what I'll do, but for now, praying. Thank goodness that I don't have to make big decisions on my own!
// Sadie Hawkins dance, in my khaki pants. Being a high school girl comes with being forced to either ask a boy to a dance or go it alone, annually. In our school, it comes in the form of Sadie Hawkins. That's less than three weeks, and I'm still working on that decision between asking a boy to the dance or going it alone. To be honest, both sound pretty fun, so there's no wrong answer, right? Tell my brain that, please, and do a better job of convincing it than I currently am. ( Also, if you'd like to provide Google with a few good ideas about how to ask someone to Sadie's, that'd be great. Because I look for ideas on Google every year and I've yet to find any help on that front.)
// More huge life decisions, as in college. More accurately, as in next year, because I'm not convinced that college is what I want to do. I've heard that it's really hard to do school once you've been out for a while, but I'm willing to give it a try. If anyone hears about any cool missions opportunities anywhere, hit me up - this one's still in progress. Preferrably Africa.
// How can I sleep more? High school psychology wins the prize for second best salesman. (after Whitney, duh) A few days of Power Point presentations was enough to convince me that I need to start getting more sleep right now. Did you know that not sleeping makes you fat, ugly, and more likely to die young? That even though your body can learn how to function on less sleep, most people need over eight hours every night to function at their best? That when you get tired in the afternoon or when you're bored, that's because you're sleep deprived, not because of your big lunch or a lack of exciting things happening? I didn't, either, and now I am thoroughly convinced that I have got to start sleeping more. Starting now. Bye.
// Food. Because, when is it not? Food like cheese waffles and white chocolate brownies and chocolate cheesecake Oreo cookies. (There might be a food post idea in that . . . there almost definitely is. Because I have discovered amazing things and I want you to have them in your life.) Also, healthy foods to balance that out. Like almond milk, which I don't like but am trying really hard to. And almond butter, which is definitely a million times tastier.
// I have a secret that I can't tell you about so I'm just going to do this, which is such a jerk move.
I will tell you that it's a project, and that it's coming to the blog eventually, and that it's really cool.
I am glad we had that talk. Like I said, I've missed you!
What's up with you lately? Any major life decisions made, delicious food eaten, or secrets to be really vague about?